Utada Hikaru - Final Distance

My favorite lyrics:

My principle is not to try

But I would do it for you

I wanna be with you now

P/S: Clips with English subtitles are available on YouTube

瞬间疑问

我很爱城市夜景，也很害怕落幕后的孤寂。

今晚又一个人，想了好多。。

有人问我：“为什么你那么没自信了？”

他并不时第一次问我了。

短短的几个月，他问了我好多次。

可是今晚同样的问题却让我想了好久。

认识他的时间也不算短，重复的疑问终于让我对自己怀疑了。

以前的我，真的很有自信吗？

怎么我从没发觉？

现在的我，真的有很自卑吗？

身边的人们，你们有发现吗？

我不懂。只是，最近心情都是蓝蓝的。

积极运动健身，为了什么？

每当我问自己时，还真的没面子回答。

我好像个傻瓜，为了那些不可能的可能而努力。

月经来了

本人经期缓缓逼近

症状如下

1。情绪失常
- 心情忽起忽落，找不到平衡点
- 偶尔傻笑，吓坏朋友（chia yi)
- 偶尔撒娇，让人呕吐
- 积极于运动，不知坏了哪根筋

2。食欲不定
- 早餐吃得比平时多，午餐却没胃口，觉得超反胃
- 上完夜课后，吃ida为我带走的三明治，忽然觉得好幸福
- 原来有朋友的帮忙和关心，食欲会变好

3。睡眠不好
- 昨晚写部落格到三点，却睡不着
- 今早八点半，闹钟没响就起了
- 跌破眼镜，春假后开学第一天，在朋友群中第一个到食堂用餐

4。心跳超快
- 想起了很多事
- 期待好多好多
- 想念了好多好多
- 春假后第一天工作就得报警
- 不知所措地跟警察阿姨交待我不懂的

5。身手敏捷
- 下班后，不哈拉，第一时间赶回房
- 不安让我动作变快
- 深怕会被我告发的人用乱枪扫射


今天leona lewis CD - Spirit 到了，听着 bleeding love 还不让我月经血流不止？

工作惊魂

除了月经，让我大量出血的当然是今天可怕的工作。

原本超爱当夜班的我（觉得没人没事做），一如往常边聊天边赚钱，突然电话响了。某栋楼的舍监要我赶快报警。吓死了。。一开始还以为是恶作剧，慢慢地还是害怕了，赶快报警。。

结果警察阿姨把我问的哑口无声。
为什么会起争执打架？ 不懂
谁和谁打？ 不懂
有多少人打？ 不懂
救命啊。。

超害怕，找Alice聊。他竟说：“没事的，没抢就没事了。”
我全身毛发立刻竖起，头脑有好多恐怖画面。。

要是有枪不是大件事吗？

那我这个front desk assistant就会被问话吗？、

要是他们争执到我这来，我不就被乱枪扫射，血染大地（比月经还多）？

啊。。。 可怕啊。。。（Alice，你懂不懂安慰人啊？！）

交班后，赶快交待清楚，拔腿就跑。


快疯了。。 好可怕紧张的一份文员工作。 只不过是赚你少少钱，需要那么样吓我吗？！

麻辣锅

吴非的重庆麻辣锅 --- 除了辣 ，还是辣。。

我本人还是较喜欢tom yam酸辣汤
酸酸辣辣，十分开胃

吃了麻辣锅，要干嘛？
当然是拉肚子。。。

拉了要干嘛？
继续拉。。。

拉完后干嘛？
再拉吧。。。

还是少吃微妙，毕竟麻辣锅太油腻了
别因为口腹之欲而坏了瘦身瘦脸大计

莫名其妙

我很莫名其妙

我很积极
我一个人游泳去
因为我想把身体肩膀练好

我很开心
我的脑海不是空白的
因为我开始有激励自己的目标

我很想家
我想要拨电回家
可是我昨天已拨过了

我很无奈
我明天又得上课了
因为春假放完了

我很安慰
我每天期待的照常发生
因为我还在等待。。。

P/S：很害怕却又很希望能快回家，快毕业，快点让他人知道我在想什么

看不透的

宝特瓶，握在手中

你懂里面是什么吗？
能够为你解渴的水？
或让你死亡的毒药？

好多东西即使握在手中也能流失
更何况双手与水还隔着一层薄膜

你看得透宝特瓶，
可是你看不见水中有什么；
当你说你看得很透很了解它；
你真的这么认为吗？
你不是他，又怎么知道他在想什么？

猜测别人想什么真的好累
每天的对话都像是心理战
好想能大声说出自己的想法
好想要身边我爱的都爱我
好想要身边我恨的都远离我

最近头脑想了好多
脑海中总有不听话的思绪
缠绕自己让我胡思乱想
我不断告诉自己不要乱想
可是画面不断闪过
我又傻傻地对着空气
看着别人看不见的画面
傻笑了，失落了

告诉自己，一切好像很遥远
可是我要努力，为了自己曾经的幻想
我要成功地为自己投资
毕竟资优股市需要本钱

我要努力把肩膀练好
我要努力念书，到新加坡发展
找到自己终生投资的资优股


握在手中的水也许看不清，
但我相信时间能验证它。

Skiing (3/17/08) on St. Partick's Day

It snowed very heavily this morning.

Dont' know why, this picture looks like a pencil hand-drawn pic.

Getting uphill was not easy, but I m not the driver. So, who cares. haha..

A frozen lake for dam. nice nice. dun b jealous, ok?

It was so cold outside the van, yet it was so hot inside. Our hottest chicks, jing yean and princess ida were acting cute with their "lotus fingers" (莲花指).

It took 2 hours to get to the skiing resort, I took super model's sunglasses and cam hor.

Eldora!!! This was where I skied...

Professional is always lonely.. i know. that's why i m not professional and surrounded by whole bunch of beginners.

Again, I was fully equipped. With Phani, haha... I m so much taller than him. haha... (Not being offensive, sorry)

Call me a professional skier please. I noe I look like one. haha

万人之上

I am proud to tell everyone that I skied with Cyclops.. His goggle can kill.

With super model, while taking the shuttle bus to a skiing place for beginners.

I saw this St. Patrick's skier.... what a freak.

We spent some time setting up the things for picture, but then they fell after we shouted.. We didnt know what happened. was our shout that powerful?

i was bullied.... mum, help me.

All in a sudden, the weather became so foggy that we could hardly see anything while skiing downhill. that was thrilling.

I took the ski lift with ida.... her hat is cute, rite? that's mine. i bought a new hat at usd 4.00 at a nearby shop. that was so cheap!!!

Ida kicked chia yi off the ski lift.

Falling from the ski lift, Chia yi was barely alive (joking).

Ready to go? skiing downhill was scary yet fun at the same time. I did a wonderful stop like a professional. too bad, nobody captured that. but i can still remember the crazy and exciting shouts of mine n others.. wohoo...

other than ski lift, we could choose to hold a "carrot" to get uphill. Once u reached the top by "carrot", u gotta get away from the unloading site asap. otherwise u will b like ida...

haha... she was dragged like a corpse just to clear the unloading site. haha

pro?

Sonia (Taiwan), Takol (Hong Kong), LongChoo, super model, ling huey and me (Malaysia)

Sonia dressed up like an astronaut. haha... funny

Jie ying (the one in cream color) was so pro that she almost didnt fall at all.

当我回到host 的家时，才发现我又忘了像电影情节般把戒指脱下，往山下丢。。

我的男明星梦想毁了。。
原来要装明星还真难。。

Snowshoeing (3/16/08)

Sunday morning, we went to a church. It was big... Though i m not a Christian, I don't mind learning more about Christianity. You will never know which faith you wanna hold in the future.

After the churhc service, we headed to the Estes Park for snowshoeing. Other than a whole bunch of Malaysians, we had an Indian PhD student, Phani with us.

雪山啊。。。 可怜的肥人，看到了没？ 雪山啊。。哈哈 （开个小玩笑啦）

Nice picture! I look good in it, isn't it? with Sonia (from taiwan), 世界超级无敌顶尖名模 woei jye and 大家姐 ling huey (Malaysians) .

This nice pic was taken by the super model. Thanks super model.

Another nice pic with sonia... I look cute. yeah!!!

I had not idea what snowshoeing was until I wore them... They made me a transformer - Optimus Prime (blue + red).

Wohoo.. Fully equiped. Of course with the sunglasses... I had no special feeling of wearing them though they were a present from my ex. Is it a good sign? I hope so.

Don't you think i look very pro?

Crossing a frozen river...

A whole bunch of Optimus Primes from Malaysia and Taiwan.

With our super model....

Our Selleck gang without Whitney (who was in Los Angeles)... Whitney, we miss you. It was snowing very heavily though.

under the tree... guess what we did?

We did what Bobo Chan and Edison Chan did!!!

As we snowshoed for so long, Bobo finally got hungry and he wanted to have my banana.. So, for the sake of friendship, i gave him... shy...





Have u seen Bollywood movie taken place in snow? Now you see!

my 3-day hostmate, LongChoo.

I just can't stop camhoring..

The snow was very heavy and we gotta climb harder as the snow was getting thicker. look at my struggling expression.

Cool pic. 4 of us on jing yean's glasses. his skin is not so bad anyway.

The best of the day was the Chinese buffet dinner that we had at the end of the day. I have not been tasting fresh shrimp, lala, oysters for so long...

So, i ate like crazy.... so does our super model... that's the true self of a super model, i think. haha.



在雪山上，我忘了把戒指拿掉。。明天要记得。。
（幻想自己是电影男主角）